I got no one to share it with but this diary. I got punished and nobody knows or cares after the walk of shame I was doing the other day. My family is locking me up inside the house without my phone, my laptop, and my dignity. So what am I doing? This. Wasting the whole damn summer vaction on writing&reading books. But there's this other thing.. It is part of the punishment although I don't see it that way. It's a good thing actually. I'm being transformed to a different school in a different CT. Which supposed to suck to any other teen cause nobody wants to leave his little friends behind, But I do. The main thing I wanna leave behind is my reputaion that you probably guessed- is a drunk slut's reputaion. Besides, in here every rumor gets to my brother which means to my mom and dad. I don't deny it anymore. It's pointless to deny all the "made up by LOSERS sex" that I'm always "doing". You must of heard this one: "OMG she&her blond friend made out with 5 adults in the parking lot!". Untrue and ended my relationship with the one hot guy I actually got with this reputation. Or this one: "I saw her kissing her brother when he came to pick her up with his car!". Well.. my brother don't have a car so.. U wanna hear another one? that's a nice one. Creative one. "She did it doggy style after she drank a whole bottle of Vodka. She's having sex for drinks!". After that one I am speachless. Who believes this crap?
Anyways, I was thinking about the reputation I want to have at the new school. Who knows pretty little liars? cause I'm going to be the new Alison. The leader. I'm pretty enough but I don't have the leadership in me. I have to work on that. I want to be the desirable girl all the guys want and can't get besides the hottest guy who will be mine. Maybe I'm just dreaming but I can make it happen. Idk how I'll stay calm without any thrills. I need it to survive, I do. SEX/ALCOHOL/DRUGS/PARTIES! I gotta do at least one of them to be happy. So.. what's my choice.. drugs.. yeah(;
"I wanna boy that tastes like whiskey and cigarettes so who's it gonna be, who's gonna be next?"
Who's nexy by porcelain Black
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